telll me.

must you see to believe. hear to believe. feel to believe.

if there is another layer, can you daresay that under that veil one hasn't cried, laughed, felt distraught, ire or sad ? despite the monotonous stare the masks gives. unchangingly. Ever constant yet burning with vibrancy from within.

is there a tinge of fairness to reward and comfort those that have been fair, is there no solace in what I seek and what seeks me?

hmm. naught apparently. painfully. harsh and real.

(=

i tried. to approach.

as mildly. as unostensibly. as genuinely.

leaves me depressed, crestfallen, embarrassed.

extremely embarrassed. laugh you shall and so have i.

for i know no other way to deal than to laugh with and at

addressing in third person or an item is an insult. Derogatory.

and if you join me, now, laugh, that would be, may be, what i was wishing for.

and yet i am confused.

is

THAT?

truly?meant?

soliloquized. this too. like eveyrthing else. will pass.

will it ? really. it is interesting how one lies to oneself everyday, is that a transgression. to lie to your self ?

guilt.pangs.ridden.

is this or is that why or this why or why not just. this time ? i do hope, for morality, it will end. for indulgence, not in the forseeable. but hopefully and saintly soon.

sorry.

i shouldn't let  run into my fist.

this moment is perfect.

please dont go away.

hold on to it.

don't let   pass you by.

glad nevertheless. recovered. relatively fast.

walls of steels.

don't you for one moment think. i was and am. )=

i'm troubled. that just what you do i guess.

just like bethany.

and i shall wait.

for many things i shall wait.

eager.

longing.

in earnest and fruitless hope

anger

happiness

anxiety.

but i shall wait.

for time is definitely on my side.

and that i know with conviction.

and conviction is all one needs.

yes !