Whenever you Remember

you know the feeling of not wanting something but actually really wanting something.

 

you want to be left alone but don't want to be left alone !?

 

i want a break but i don't want a break. all for different reasons !

 

and

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

These were my interview questions and how i answered them hahaaha some were really really bad though.

Thought it would be useful for people who would be applying next year ! or in the future. i benefited from one such blog ! hahaah enjoy! i made some sarcastic remarks i was a little angry after the second interview because i felt so misunderstoodand i did not really clear the air that well.

JUST REMEMBER REMAIN CALM AND SMILE. THAT GOT ME my spot (=

 

1^st Round [3 interviewers]

                               

You come from a very close knit family. Do you find yourself very sheltered from the harsh realities of life?

 

 

Samuel. Do you really want to study medicine? And become a doctor?

 

 

What do you think are the concerns of Singaporeans now?

 

You mentioned right – sitting. Why do you think right sitting is not taking place?

 

You mentioned AMD. So what’s the difference between AMD and euthanasia?

 

What are your views on euthanasia?

 

What do you want to specialize in? Why?

 

Do you really want to study medicine and become a doctor? [question asked again]

 

 

I forgot what they asked me but I ended up talking about a doctor called dr alex chao who passed away during the sars period. I said how he sang to his patients in icu, [what I want to do!] and how he was still so family oriented even when he was going to die [he drove pass his house to wave to his daughters for the very last time before he went to the hospital and was warded in the sars ward]

 

Tell us what your second choice is. Why bioengineering?

 

   

Do you think that with the declining birth rates in Singapore … obstetricians … necessary …?

 

 

As we can see, you have many experiences as a … SCOUT … [ I thought they would ask about council ..]. so tell us when leading during scouts, what were certain qualities you needed to have and how you developed and changed ?

 

 

Do you think that as a doctor, you are more of a follower or a leader ?

 

What do you know of hand foot and mouth disease. Tell us more. How is the government attempting to control it ?

 

 

That would be all.

Thank you.

soliloquized

 

[the guy who interviewed me who helped opened and close the door then whispered to me “good good” just before I left] that made my day. I needed it especially after the 2^nd interview I was going to be put through.

 

2^nd Round [the horror for me]

 

 

You have been said to be sheltered from the harsh realities of life. And not be worldly wise and street smart. Do you agree?

I answered really badly. Cos I was a little bit intimidated and appalled they are focusing on such a thing argh. Talked about how I don’t get everything in life. They cut me and asked ..

 

Define Street smart.

[I tot I was applying for med, not English course in FASS]

Er … means you don’t get used by people.

 

So do you get used ?

I tend to try to help people and I smile all the time so perhaps I am approachable enough to be used. But I learn to draw my limits and I know when I am being used.

 

You gotta speak up, I am partially deaf?

[your partially bald too, oh but I am sure you know that ostensibly]

Sorry to hear.

 

How do you handle stress?

Well I bring my friend to a secluded corner of the school and we talk about what depresses or stresses us?

 

Hmm this friend you’re referring to is he a he or she a she cause you mentioned secluded corner. …. Sounds quite like a … rendezvous!

Hahahah no my friends are guys but we do like privacy doing decent stuff like talking.

Also I dance it off, I love to sing.

I play vball with my friends

 

Give us specific examples.

 

We are not convinced. That you will be able to handle the failures as a doctor.

[are you ever convinced ? I learnt that they are not]

 

Tell me two events within the past 5 years that have been the most fulfilling?

 

On a scaled of 0 to 10. 0 being extrovert and 10 being introvert. Tell me where you lie.

I said 7 on extrovert. But I like to think through my actions first. So I spend time day dreaming etc.

 

 Wait I am confused. You like to think over things yet you say you are extroverted and like to get things done ?!

[you of all people should know that life has no black or white but rather shades of grey …]

 

You must understand that we are not concerned about your ability to handle academic vigour. But rather many houseman quit within 1 year or MOs leave and we need to have that assurance from you that you are prepared for the job ! tell us how ?

[I will not leave ? I will sleep in the lt from now on or hospital thereafter]

I only can say that I have gone for hospital attachments. I know the life of doctors. I know of some of the sacrifices I would have to make, but I too know that I can see my self enjoying this career in the future. I will find fun in monotony and that is why I will not quit in the face of adversity. I believe that as a doctor I have a responsibility and I will not shirk my respon. [poor answer but I really ran of of ways to subst.]

 

Tell us what is your second choice. Why bioengineering ?

[same reason as first interview]

 

What is your third choice. Which faculty is that … [they gave a rather revolted constipated condescending look on their faces, I chose projects and facilities management]

[I thought you were suppose to be more caring and sentient and less sarcastic when you’re a doctor] and not so snoobish and proud.

 

Do you think you are credited for this slot in this university ?

[oh you ..$^@#.., well if I wasn’t you wouldn’t have invited me here today now would you. And honestly does it really matter what I think ? it is you guys that are putting me through or not]

Yes I do. [that is all I said I was a little stunned]

 

What do you know about the NUS programme ?

Yes I know in the first year they study anatomy, histology, bioc. … [I was cut short]

 

Yes I know what we study. Thank you. You do not need to tell me. [and you just had to ask]

 

 Yes you mention about problem based learning. What do you think of it ?

You need to dedicate a lot of time to truly benefit from the prog esp because I read somewhere that is usually given near the examination period.

 

What do you want to specialize in?

Obs-gyn

 

HA! What?! Nothing here even indicates that you are remotely interested in become a gynae? Please tells us why ?

Said the same reason as the first interview [now throughout my expl. They kept giving the cynical chuckle and the shaking of head in severe disapproval]

 

So I am right to say you want to be a gynae because it gives you a warm fuzzy feeling or being able to help people, as opposed to lets say cancer and death ?

[oh nono I want to be a doctor because it is the closest thing to seeing people die EVERYDAY of my career! And I want that horrible sad depressing side of life, living so helpless knowing that I can’t save all my patients. Wow that is definitely GOT to be the REASON !]

No! but it is a perk of the job. I like the long term relationship with my patients. And there is nothing wrong with having that cheery feeling.

 

So if I gave you the choice you would rather do gynae to lets say oncology and cancer ?

[your giving me a choice right …. Duh]

I would choice to do something that I enjoy and like and at the moment for now it is obs-gyn. There is nothing wrong, I feel, in being able to do what I want and like.

 

Yes there is nothing wrong with that. Why don’t you do something that saves more lives like chronic diseases ?

[so a doctor’s credentials are based on the number of lifes he saves. How about those who care for the terminally ill ? How about helping to bring new lifes into this world?]

 

Would you mind being posted to oncology department ?

[everybody would initially]

I actually do find it quite close to my heart, taking into consideration that everyone that I know that is above 70 in my family is currently afflicted with it ! haha .. so yes I know what it is like to work in such conditions and I know of a doctor in a cancer centre that still took time off just 1 or 2 minutes to hold the hands of my grandma to reassure her that he will try ALL in his capacity that she recovers. It was inspiring.

 

How can you help your grandmother that is stricken with cancer?

[er I can be a loving and caring grandson] that I was my answer

 

 Define loving and caring ?

[again I am at the medicine interview not a FASS English course interview]

At the moment, er… [cos I thought it was a weird weird weird question] .. I try to be understand cos I sometimes get easily irritated by the good wills of my grandmother. So I try to understand that she means me well. She often gets very excited about me coming for this interview, but I learn to understand that the things she does, like cook fattening meals, ensure I look immaculate, got the right tie etc, is all for my good and I learn to appreciate that and tolerate what I normally find irritating. It is all about communication and love. [and they actually laughed and smiled genuinely here!]

 

Will you do abortion ? why ?

 

So if An 18 year old teenage girl comes to see you, will you perform abortion on her. The fact she had unprotected sex shows that she is immature in her decisions. Will you still go ahead with the surgery ?

 

A 42 year old man that suffers from ED comes to you and asks for Viagra. So that he can have sex with his girlfriend and have a child but remain single and not intend to marry his girlfriend. Will you prescribe the drug to him ?

[hey you want to meddle with people’s sex lifes too !]

 

Tell us within 30 secs. Why you are different. What sets you apart. You are not allowed to use the following words in your statement: passion, integrity, dedicated, compassionate, hardworking, intelligent, and interested.

[I think I rushed through forgetting to breathe. Cos at the end of it, I was breathless.] but i think they could sense my passion and genuinity ! (=

 

 

Post interview passing questions [when I was standing up ready to leave]

 

You were from hwa chong for 6 years. How is IP like?

I think it was a good system. I got to do whatever I liked when I wanted to. Most of the time. And it allowed me time to do council activities!

How did you find being an Indian in a Chinese community?

I think actually it is really normal although sometimes you do get privileges. Unfair [in a good way] treatment. yup

 

 

What is you ideal wife. What course would she have studied?

I don’t think degree wise it is really important to me. But if I had to choose… er … I would have to say business.

Why? So that she can help you earn money?

Erm no I think she would be interesting and different. Vibrant and dynamic yet caring.

 

 

What is your ideal car?

Toyota because it has sentimental value. It was the first care my father bought.

Can you tell us specifically which model?

Haha I know nothing about cars sorry!

[they gave me the “I knew it” look]

Sigh.

 

I felt like I was like harassed and flamed and set on fire. During this interview. But through it all I did one thing, I smiled like siao, very naturally not fakely and I think that is what ultimately saved me. I was at the end of the day, able to handle the pressure and stress of very unreasonable people. And I think that was the objective of the 2^nd interview. At least for me it was.

 

Thank you.

 

Yup remember to read up alot and have your opinions. They can tell if you truly have the passion or not ! hahaha

 

-The End-

status:success (=

praise be to god.

and happy birthday sis !

brown cloth shoes.

were they always brown.

weren't they once white

aren't they still white

beneath it all ?

 

i was reflective. in state.

it will all get better in time.

i hate this. i was happy. i tot it was over.

doesn't anything show? (=

 

when all the clouds darken up the skyway

i wish they was a rainbow highway to be found

leading from my window pane.

to a place behind the sun

to a place beyond the rain.

 

if happy little bluebird fly

beyond the rainbow

why oh why

can't I

 

life

is just like the 2 sides of a coin

one; for the world to see

the other, hidden in the shadow.

for the that one, your valued.

yet it is both that determines your cents.

 

round freak. be rectangular like a dollar. i mean 2 dollars.

at least both sides are see through.

 

tell the world

tell the world

simplicity is complicated

very complicated indeed.

and it was said.

 

time will heal.

time will compensate.

god will provide.

comfort.

solace.

happiness.

blessings.

open doors.

dreams.

 

and it was said.

 

coincidence is god's way of remain anonymonous.

he has a plan.

and a reason.

his ways are higher than ours.

his thinking is greater than ours.

 

and it was said.

 

miracles can happen if you believe.

 

and i tell you.

 

i have never been that happy in my life.

for he was glorious and worthy to be praised.

 

the past one year has been filled with ups and downs (= and i thank him for sending many people to guide me along different parts of the way when i was in the abyss of darkness.

 

and it was said.

 

Fulfill your destiny

for it will come knocking on your door.

 

and now i know from May 29 that

 

*knock knock

You were definetely there!

 

[this entry is dedicated to all my friends in school, class, council, vball pips, NS bunk and platoon, church ! including my teachers who taught me, who did not teach me and to those who cared for me, especially my family !, thank you for being there when i needed someone to talk to, play with, joke with.] God Bless and all the best ahead.

 

the last sunday ...

before we step down ...

still doing cheering banner. we painted the cordon tape. and the claim your space banner.

tks jnrs and 33rd had fun.

tmr is eval exco. i wonder what i should say (: hmmm

and yes omg i was the happiest this week when volleyball girls beat nanyang. it was one of the most exciting cheering matches i have gone to.

the most memorable one was also volleyball.also semis. but it was last year. we were losing 0-2. then we fought back and won 3-2. i loved the finals too. also 2-2. then we won. that was the only event i was cheer ic for weee. netball finals wow tie with ac after 3rd quarter. 37-37. then we later beat them. this year was table tennis girls finals. so close omg. but in terms of fighting spirit. our girls definetely were much better than rj (: great job.you will wonder hahaah y its all girls hmm

 

and there are 3 test omg this week. chem. maths. econs. so going to die for all.

nvm. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

hopefully.

 

yay i tink i finally finalised the design.

 

for now ..

 

This is our memory ...

 

 

我们的回忆

Music by  WU SONGJUN

Lyrics by  TIAN CHENG

                    LIN CHENGXIAN

 

记 得 那 个夜 晚

 

牵 着 手 的 呼 唤

 

舞 动 的 青 春

 

是 我 们 在 歌 唱

 

满 天 闪 烁 星 光

 

熄 不 灭 的 希 望

 

无 数 的 期 待

 

在 此 刻 凝 了 梦 想

 

渴 望 我 能 回 到 那 一 天

 

时 光 停 留 那 瞬 间

 

多 少 次 迷 失 方 向

 

总 有 你 在 我 的 身 旁

 

陪 伴 我，走 过 最 难 忘 的 一 段

 

无 数 的 欢 喜 悲 伤

 

只 有 你 陪 着 我 分 享

 

过 去 的 美 好 时 光

 

我 只 能 回 头 望

 

 

 

 

闪 烁 满 天 的 星 光 

 

熄 不 灭 的 希 望

 

无 数 的 期 待

 

在 此 刻 都 凝 成 梦 想

 

明 知 会 有 离 别 的 一 天

 

却 从 来 不 曾 后 悔

 

多 少 次 迷 失 方 向

 

总 有 你 在 我 的 身 旁

 

陪 伴 我，走 过 最 难 忘 的 一 段

 

无 数 的 欢 喜 悲 伤

 

只 有 你 陪 着 我 分 享

 

过 去 的 美 好 时 光

 

我 只 能 回 头 望

 

 

一 转 眼 就 到 终 场

 

太 多 的 回 忆 要 收 藏

 

心 里 总 留 个 地 方

 

我 永 远 不 会 忘

 

我 们 的 回 忆

 

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Nothing lasts for ever. All good things will and must come to an end.I will cherish all the memories and I am indeed proud to be part of this council, this family and this legacy.

 

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